g room, I gotta get control! I gotta just handle these itches in a detached fashion and www.beeg just let it go. That was when Josh, shorts and boxers still around his ankles, cute ass facing me, said, "Well, what about these? These are even worse." And he did a beeg xxx 180-turn and beeg porn videos faced me dead on. beeg moms He was pointing to the two flea bites to the right of his penis and ball sack, but I never got that far. His 3" boyhood was sticking straight up, and beegxx the summer day had his balls swinging freely and beeg poto low. beeg sexxx "Well, those are pretty bad, Josh. Did you show your mom those?" "Yeah," he said, "she said to not scratch them, but I can't help it, they itch! Can you put some lotion on those too?" This was going south far too quickly! begg I said, "Josh," we aren't doing anything weird here, but maybe you shouldn't mention to anyone that you had your pants down and I was rubbing lotion next to your privates." He busted out laffing and collapsed back onto beeg.con the couch, covering porn beeg his mouth with his hands so as not to make so much noise. AND in the process his beeg com beautifully erect boyhood was stiff and a stick about a foot away from me. "Ok, I beeg com won't" he giggled. I had him hold his stiff penis and ballsack over to the left while I applied lotion beeg x to the bites. I had one bite done beeg free and was about to put lotion on the second one when he let go of his stiff penis and bang! hit right into my hand with the lotion. He totally cracked up, and I said, "Josh, come on. I am trying to help here, and you are trying to https //beeg.com attack me with your penis." He laffed, and agreed to beeg poto not do it again. I got some more lotion and was nearly to my flea bite target when I was again struck by his erect member. He cracked up again, and said, "it slipped, it has lotion on it now...." I tried SO hard not to go there, when he said, "Can you wipe it off?" I about came on the spot. "Josh" I said slowly..... He got a serious look on his беег face and beeeg said, "it's ok, Michael, beeg.con I won't tell, I sex beeg promise." "But Josh" I began, "I am not supposed to touch young boys'......" "...Dicks!" he exclaimed and again cracked up. Oh, man, this was gonna go farther south, I could feel it. "Right" I said. "I just wanna have you wipe off the lotion" he said. And so, with my beeg jepang life hanging in the balance, I enclosed his long stiff shaft in my hand, and pulled my hand away, allowing for ample friction, but also extracting the lotion. Josh just closed his eyes and smiled, his dick pulsing at the touch. "OOOhhhh! That felt good! Do it again." "Uh...." "Come on Michael, p-l-e-a-s-e?" I b eeg gave up. It was what I wanted, and on some level it was what he wanted. .beeg "Ok, but not too indian beeg long, and listen for anyone coming to the door, ok?" He nodded his head eagerly. This time I put lotion beeg hindi onto my hand, and closed my hand around his beeg/ dick, and made a downward jacking off motion beag.com on his dick, followed by an upward motion. "Oh man! that feels good. Keep doing it!" I continued for awhile, and it was obvious he was really enjoying it. I asked as I jacked him off, "Josh, do you beeg.com ever do this by yourself, like, without lotion?" He nodded his head, "yeah, and I also lay on my stomach when it's beeg . stiff and hump the bed." "Wow, cool!" I said, "does anything ever come out?" "Whaddya mean?" he asked. "Well, beeg.com sometimes when boys are about 11 years old or older, they can start shooting their sperm out, and it feels really really really good." "OH! I wanna shoot my sperm out too! How good does it feel? How do I do it?" he quickly asked. "Hey" I said, "it might or might not come out, but if you do this long beeg anal enough, just like this, your dick will feel better and better and better, and all of a sudden it feels like you gotta take a pee real bad, only it feels about a hundred times more better than finally letting go bee after holding it beeg .com for a long time. But even if the sperm doesn't come beeg xx out, beeg xx it will still feel good." "Cool! I wanna do that! My dick is feeling better already. Keep rubbing me, ok?" "Ok, but let me know when it feels really good." He agreed. I pumped him for about 7-8 beegcom minutes, and he said, "Michael, I gotta go beegxx take a pee, I'll be right back." "Oh" I said, mom beeg "hang on, it might be like your stuff is gonna come out, or at least it will feel like it. It probably isn't that you have to pee." "But it feels like I gotta go real bad." "Does it beeg x still feel beeg good when I do this?" I asked, jacking him off all the while. "Yeah, big time." "Ok, hang in there, ok? Let's see what happens, don't worry." Again, he agreed. beeg indian I changed my grip so that I could work his penis head more, and I pumped him with one hand and massaged his dickhead with the other. He bagan to beeg massage buck a bit, and push his butt off the couch toward my hand. "Oh, my gosh! Something's happening! Uuhh! Ohhhh!" beeg beeg and with that his beeg black body nearly folded up on itself, and I could feel his dick pulsing as if trying to push out thick, steaming liquid. None came out, but nevertheless Josh was having his beeg beeg first real orgasm. He laid back and relaxed, dick still sticking straight up, hands at his side. "Dang, Michael! That was intense! It felt REAL good! Can we do it again? I mean not now, but maybe again later?" "Sure," I said nervously. "It's Ok, Michael, I won't tell anyone about this ever, ever." "Ok, Josh, if you promise, Ok, then I promise too. But if you ever tell anyone, I could go to jail or be killed, for real, ok?" He nodded his head. "Really? Why?" "Well, because the world doesn't like an adult doing that with a kid. They call it child abuse, and they really hurt people and put them in jail for it," I said seriously. "For doing beegcom THAT?" he exclaimed, "how stupid! I will never tell, EVER." And then he got beeg.coom a bright idea kind of a look. sex beeg "Hey, can I see your sperm come out?" I rolled my eyes in my head. "Hey," he said, "I promised." "Yeah, but you would have beeg porno to do the same thing that I just did to you, only it might not take as tube beeg long as you did." "Why not?' he asked. "Because" I said, "I've had a stiffie ever since you first dropped your pants." "That gave you beeg milf a stiffie?" he chuckled. "Yup, darn right. Then your dick beeg mom being pumped like that made mine wish it could have beeg gesetz it too." We both laughed. "Ok," he said. With that I undid my belt buckle and www beeg.com unzipped my shorts, pulling them down. My boner tented my boxers, and he giggled, "You have a big one!" As soon as my throbbing member was out of its tent, Josh put some lotion on his hands and grabbed me with both hands. I laid back, and knew that it wouldn't be long, not long at all. beeg mature "Josh, go over to that drawer real quick and get me one of the beeg video small beeg.c hand towels, ok?" He did, and I put it on my stomach. "What is that for?" he asked. "Well," I said, "I don't wanna shoot all my sperm all over my shirt." He laughed his cute laugh, and said ok, never missing a stroke. He even varied his tempo, his grip, speed, and pretty soon I knew it was a matter of seconds. I said, "Josh, keep pumping me and don't stop, please, even when you beeg anal see the sperm coming out, ok?" xxxbeeg He nodded. "Oh, man, Josh, you beeeg are REALLY good at this. I will wwwbeeg show www.beeg you some stuff later that will make your dick feel 10 times this good!" "And your dick, too?" he porno beeg asked laffing. "Yup, mine too. Oooohhhh man, Josh, here it comes!" and with that I ejaculated volley after volley of sperm. Jacking off never felt so good, ever. I had laid there for a couple seconds, beeg 18 and Josh said, hd beeg "well, it looks like pretty weird stuff, but it looked like you really liked it when it beeg mature came out." I could only give Josh an uh-huh. "Promise we can do this again, promise Michael?" "I promise." "Cool!" "And Josh....." "I know. I won't tell www beeg anyone." beeg porn "Good boy. They just wouldn't understand." "That's Ok, Michael, I understand, and you understand," and with that he rolled over, still somewhat stiff, and rolled up onto me, pressing his boyhood into my stomach, and gave me a killer hug, the kind you wish for only in dreams. "Can we wash your truck now?" he asked gleefully, beeh and www beeg com as he got up beeg xvideos we pulled up our beeg gesetz boxers and shorts, "I love helping you." "Well, Josh, I love helping you too!" and I winked at him. He beeg. com laughed and jumped up, wrapping his legs around my torso and laying his head on my shoulder. "Damn, Josh, I love you." He nodded his head, "You too" he replied, and he jumped down and dashed beeg hd out the front door to grab the hose first................. ********************* Anyone wishing comment can email me at jediplightaol. Hope you tube beeg liked it. THE EDUCATION OF JOSHUA Part Two It was Saturday morning, and I was trying to sleep in (which bee of course means something will happen so that you can't!) and I heard the knocking at beegcom the door. beeg teen Being a light sleeper, I heard the banging after about bang #2, and was already rising and walking when I heard Josh's voice. "Michael, are you beeg coom up?" beeg I simply opened the door and and let my disheaveled appearance be the answer. "Did I get you up?" Josh asked, smiling. "Aw, not really," I lied, "I was laying begg there awake wondering what to do with my day anyway. So what's up?" "My dad wanted to borrow some butter. We're having pancakes and eggs, and he cooking. But he didn't have any butter." "Sure, no problem. Come on to the kitchen." Josh follow me closely, and when I bent over to reach the butter on the second shelf of the 'frig, he didn't move, placing his groin area right in contact with my behind. I knew it would get him laffing, so I beeg xnxx said, "Not now, Josh, I just woke up." He said, "What? beeg mom Huh? Oh!" and laffing he swatted me hard on the butt. I laffed and turned and gave him a stick of butter. "Hey, I was gonna go to the movies today. You wanna go too?" "Oh! Yeah! Whaddya gonna see?" "I was thinking about seeing Jumanji, which is pretty funny." "Oh yeah! OK! I'll ask my dad if I can go!" and off he went thru the house like a bullet and out the front door beeg anal , making more noise than when he came in. I was just finished with my beegs shower when my front door received it's second assault of the morning, again from my little buddy Josh. "Micahel! My dad says I can go! When are we going?" I said that I didn't know, I hadn't looked at the newspaper yet, and asked him to pull the paper apart and find the movies section. I left him to the task and went to blow dry my hair. "Ok, I found it. It's playing at the place down the street at 11:05. Let me see what time it is..... (pause) It's 9:15. How long do we have?" "About and hour and a half, which is perfect. I gotta eat breakfast beeg..com and then go to the ATM before we go to the movies anyway." "Ok" he said, "can I go with you to the ATM?" He came to the bathroom and put his head onto my bare stomach and gave me a hug. I gave site beeg.com beeg him one back, and said, "Josh, how did you get to be so cute?" He shrugged his shoulders and gave me a big grin. "Well," I beeg. said, "either you were born www beeg.com that way or you've been practicing." He put his hands way up on my shoulders and put his beeg porn chin on my chest and pressed his stomach and hips tightly against my front, "I practice" he smiled. "No, duh! Do you?" I retorted mockingly, and smiled. "Well, can I?" beeg teen he asked. My mind raced! Uhhhh...... He rubbed his body from side to .beeg side against beegporn mine, making obvious friction occur in key places. "...go to the ATM with you." "Sure as long as your dad says it is Ok." Whoosh! out the front door he beeg free went, and he probably whooshed beeg .com thru beeg sex video his beag.com front door before mine even shut. I decided that breakfast would be some toast with butter and peanut butter, and coffee, and a multi-vit, and thru the toast in for processing. beegxxx It hadn't even come up when Josh came beeg hindi thru the front door and appeared in the kitchen doorway. "It's ok!" I ate and Josh chattered about his soccer beeg sexxx team and how this and that happened, and I marveled at the beauty of this boy. He was 100% boy, blonde beeg 4k as they come, and cuter than most. And here he was telling me how his life was teen beeg going. Man, this is SO cool! I beeg sex puttered around the house listening to Josh talk about school, his friends, his toils at home, and even how he slept. It was pure bliss! The trip to the ATM was uneventful and fairly quiet, and we went to the theater right after that. On entering the specific theater, we were the first ones there and so took the best position about 1/4 of the way from the front, sorta off to the porn beeg left chairs. Even when the show started there were only 3 or beeg/ 4 other individuals or groups attending. I guess they www beeg didn't have beeg hd anyone to bang on their doors in the morning... The show was of course great and we laffed at all the same places. At one point Josh leaned over to his right and put his arm under and around mine kinda like a pillow, and put his head against my arm. SO cute! I positioned my arm for comfort, porno beeg which meant it either went out straight or rest my hand on anal beeg Josh's thigh. I chose the latter. beeg hairy I patted him on the thigh lightly and he hugged me tighter. He xnxx beeg took his left hand and put it on top of mine, and then moved my hand upwards, until it rested on top of beeg porche his boyish package. He immediately got a beeg.coom stiffie, as teen beeg did I. He let his pillow arm down and he sat up a bit free beeg straighter so his reach was correct, and beeg xvideos put his right hand directly on my groin, milf beeg groping and massaging and kneading my penis. I did the same for him, and he moaned very slightly several times. I slid my hand upwards to his tummy, and then back downwards underneath his shorts and boxers. His erection felt amazing, and I slowly jacked him off using no outward visible motions so that we didn't get busted in the show. He pulled his penis out the bottom of his shorts and I kept at it, and much to my amazement he leaked a little bit of pre-cum! Oh! this was gonna be a great summer. "Don't stop" he whispered, and nearly immediately his body shook and his penis stiffened and pulsed repeatedly. A very very slight amount of wetness appeared in the slit of his penis, glistening in the movie light. beeg sex He smiled at me and leaned his head over, "It felt like some stuff came out. It felt really good." "Josh, I promise beeg/ that I can make it feel 5x's site beeg.com beeg that good, easily..." "How?" "I'll show you when beeg 4k we get back to my house. Ugh... Josh, I am gonna squirt if you keep pumping me here. It'll be really messy." "I wanna see you do it." "I promise I will show you back at the house, Ok? I promise." "Ok," he said, "but that's two promises you gotta keep," and with that we both watched the rest of the movie. beeg xvideos When beeg tube we beeg mp4 got back www.beeg com to the hd beeg house, I gave Josh a piggyback ride into the house, and he rested his head against my back. "I gotta go to the bathroom. I drank too much soda." I told him no problem, and went to the bedroom to beeg video prepare a few things while he went to the bathroom. (You know.... www.beeg..com pulling out a cum cloth, some lotion, make sure the house was locked up....) Josh came out and walked down the hallway to my www.beeg bedroom. He had buttoned his shorts, but hadn't cinched up his belt. "So, what are we gonna do?" "Well, Josh, you don't have to do www.beeg..com anything at all you don't want to, Ok? I like you a lot and just milf beeg wanna make you beeg come feel really really really good." "Ok!" he giggled, "I want to, too! What are we gonna do?" "Well, for starters I am gonna keep my two promises....."+ "Which two?" he asked. "Number one, to make your penis feel beeh at least 5 x's as good as in the show, and two, you wanted to see my stuff come out." "Cool!" beeg moms and he nodded his head. He laid back on the bed and unbuttoned his shorts, and slid them off along with his boxers. He was already starting to harden up a bit just at the idea of getting stimulated. Within seconds he was fully erect and hard as a rock. I put my hands around to the small of his back, and placed my beeg. com head just above his knees. He spread his legs a little, and I kissed up one inner thigh all beegs the way to his balls. I then kissed all the way up the other thigh. The next time I did it, I nuzzled his sack with my nose, and licked it lightly, and www beeg com then proceeded https //beeg.com to lick up one inner thigh all the way to his nuts, and then lick the underside https //beeg.com of his sack and right on up to the tip of his penis. I did the same using the www.beeg com www beeg com other thigh as a runway. I did this a few times on each side, and by beeg xxx the time I got to the last time, he was bucking as I licked the underside of his boyhood. The last trip up, I just went up the underside of his stiff dick and then engulfed it in my mouth. He moaned loudly, and said, "Oh beeg porn Michael, you were right! This feels really really good!" "Josh, we aren't even to the good part yet," and I smiled beegporn at him and he smiled back. I began altering my tempo, slow and shallow, fast and deep, massaging beeg coom his balls along teen beeg the way. I could tell he was getting pretty close. I sucked his dick, held his nuts with my left hand, and massaged his anus with my beeg sex video right hand. He began moaning continuously, and then several uuhh!'s in row, and I knew he was cumming NOW. I increased my blow job tempo and concentrated on the head of his dick, and he doubled up and grabbed my head, "Oh Michael! Oh Michael!" He grunted and then dry ejactulated, orgasming long and hard. "Aw man! Aw beeg tube man! that was awesome! Aw man! It beeg hindi still tingles." "Cool, Josh, I am glad you enjoyed it. I like making you feel good." "Yeah, I like it too!" he laffed. He paused beeg. for a couple short indian beeg minutes, obviously thinking, and then turned his head over to me. "Michael, do beeg. I have to take your stuff in my mouth, too. I wanna to beeg ass try it too, but I don't wanna have that stuff in my mouth." "Hmmmmmm, Ok, Josh, how about this: you beeeg do xxx beeg what I did, and then when I get close I will let you know and mom beeg you can beeg lesbian just pump beeg porn videos me into a cloth. Would that be Ok?" He shook his head yes, and I asked again to make sure it was ok. He again nodded his head yes. I pulled my erect dick out and slid off my pants, too. milf beeg "Wow, you have a big one!" he beeg-com giggled. He grabbed it with both hands, and pumped it up and down, then he licked up the beeg movies sides and underside of my engorged member. Oh, this beeg hd wasn't gonna take any time at all! "Yeah, Josh, you are doing good." He winked at me, and if it free porn beeg were possible, beeg tubes it seemed like beeg..com he did an even better job. He massaged my balls, jacked me off while sucking, and went as deep as he could on the blowjob. I got close, and warned him that I was cumming pretty soon, and would let him know. He nodded. He reached around and put his index finger on my butthole, beeg.con and that did it. I beeg vids said, "NOW Josh, NOW," and he grabbed the cloth and put in around my dick, and masturbated me, up and down, up and down, eliciting beeg jepang www.beeg..com a beeg . few moans from me and lots of sperm, too. "Josh, truth now. Have you been practicing that? I am beeg.c serious, that was excellent. It is like you already knew what to do." "I don't know," Josh said, "I just remember what you did and what felt good, and I did that to you. So I did Ok?" "OK? OK?! Josh that was g-r-e-a-t. One of the beeg hot best beeg.com/ of my life. Seriously." "Really? I did it that good?" "Yup." He giggled, and beeg lesbian bounced up to beeg lesbian put his clothes on. I laid there беег and admired the the fact that there could be the beeg xxx ingenuity and coolness that we called young beeg come boys. "Thank you, Josh." He just smiled at me and winked, then moved over and put his head on my shoulder. "You're welcome," www.beeg.com he said dreamily. "Thank YOU too! I think it will still be tingling until......" He paused. beeg com. "Until the next time we do it?" I asked. "Yeah! Until the next time! Cool!" beeg coom and with that he was out the door, heading toward home. ************************** Anyone wishing to comment can email me at jediplightaol. Thanks! THE EDUCATION OF JOSHUA Part Three "Michael, can I ask you a question?" Josh eyed me carefully, sorta like he was gauging how I responded to his request, and what mood I was in at the time. "Josh, you can ask me any question about anything at anytime. It is ok. I will always answer your question as honestly as I can. So, what's your question?" "Well," he pondered, "I know some of the stuff that we do is like what gays beeg xnxx do. Does that mean that I am gay?" "Hmmmm. That's a very good question you are beeg hairy asking, Josh. I can tell you my opinion, how's that?" "Ok, yeah, that will be ok, I guess," he said. "OK. Well, just because you did what you did does not make you gay. Many boys do those things free beeg and then maybe, sometimes as they grow up they beeg movies decide that they want to do other stuff, like with beeg porn videos girls. beeg.com/ They aren't mad that they did the stuff earlier, it is just that they want to try the girl stuff too, and so maybe they do. free porn beeg Some like it beeg videos more, some like the boy stuff more. Each person has to beeg sexxn decide for themselves what they like and don't like. In the meantime, you do not have to do anything you don't want to do, Josh. For me, I just like making you feel that good, and I like it when beegxxx you make me feel that good, too." "I like it too, Michael!" he exclaimed. "Sometimes at night when I go to bed I think about what we did and I get a stiffie, and I play with it and pump it and try to get it to squirt its stuff again. But so far only what you did has made it tube beeg come out..." He smiled and then sorta chuckled out loud. "What's so funny?" I asked with a smile. "Um, well, it felt SO good that every time I think about it I get a stiffie all over again. Here, feel!" and wwwbeeg he thrust his swollen groin bulge toward me. beeg..com I dutifully placed my hand beeg sex video over his penis and balls, and sure enough he had a raging hard-on. I'll bet you beeg porche have one, too!" beeg 18 he blurted. "I might not have a few moments ago, but begg when I felt your weenie, it gave me a stiffie for sure." Josh beeg tubes obligingly placed his hand over my 6 1/2" bulge. He www.beeg.com began beeg gesetz to rub up and down and then started laffing. "What?" beeg.com/ I questioned. "I dunno," he said, "it is just that I like this a lot. How beeg video come it feels xxxbeeg so good?" I laffed too. "I think it feels so beeg sexxn good so that we keep doing it." We both cracked completely up. "But Josh" I said on a more serious note, "we can't just get together and rub each others dicks ALL the time, or else we will need bandages!" Again, we both cracked up at the mental image of both of us with our schlongs beeg-com wrapped up beeg black in gauze and band-aids. "I mean, Josh, you are cute, funny, fun to be with, fun to take to movies, fun to wash my truck with, I mean a LOT of things about your are cool, not only the idea that you will do that special stuff with me. беег I mean, of COURSE it feels good anal beeg and beeg indian beeg mature you do it REALLY good, but liking you is a lot more than just liking you because you like your dick being sucked and I like sucking it." "What?!" Josh pitched. "You mean you LIKE sucking my weenie? What if it squirts its stuff out?" "ESPECIALLY when it squirts, Josh, especially," I responded, "but that doesn't mean that every time I see you we need to take our clothes off or you undress so xxxbeeg I can get a hard-on. You know? I think you are totally cool, and THAT'S why I like you. The extra special stuff we do just makes it all the more better." "Yeah? Really? You like me anyway? Cool!" and beeg com. he nodded his head up and down in approval, smiling all the while. "Yeah, really." "Cool." And then just as xnxx beeg suddenly as we had beeg hot broached this subject, Josh changed channels and we were off into a different direction. "Hey, Michael, have you ever been to the zoo?" "Yeah, haven't beeq.com you? It is pretty neat. I like the monkeys, tigers, and seals the best." "No, I have never been there. Can beeg porno we go? Can we? I would love to see all those animals." "Well, bee it would have to be OK with your dad, but if you wanna ask him we can go maybe on next Saturday. How does that sound?" "It sounds great. I'll go ask him right now!" "Well, you guys beeg milf just ate dinner and it's been a long day, maybe you can ask your dad tomorrow when he's not tired." "Why?" 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